I try not to ...

I try not to be so hard on myself, but that seems difficult. I set extremely high expectations on what I can and should be able to do. Who do I blame? I don't remember my parents putting tons of pressure on me to be perfect. I know that I was encouraged to do my best. I become frustrated when I want to be able to do something and can't, such as be positive 24/7, have high energy all the time, be a great teacher, be a great friend, remember everything, etc... I am sure everyone has their lists of things.

There seems to be a fine line of balance between pushing yourself to get better and beating yourself up when you don't achieve or don't accomplish. I don't think I am fully come to terms with not pushing myself, but I can learn not to beat myself up when I am not perfect.

A Must Read!

The Hunger Games and Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins.

You must find time to read these books. I read the Hunger Games. It reminded me of The Giver and Fahrenheit 451, but better. Then, I found out there was a second book and engulfed Catching Fire. I am still in the book. I have had dreams about Katniss and her adventures and struggle. I have stayed up late reading these books. There is a third and final book in this series that comes out August. I don't know if I can wait that long. It is not just the story and great parallels of society, but excellent writing and great complex, real characters. Enough, both books have been on the best sellers list. I am not the only one WHO LOVED IT!

My love/hate relationship

I have been very involved with my new teaching job. I love/hate teaching Jr. high. It has the good, the bad, and the ugly days. I have days when I drive home exhausted and feel like I taught Rocket Science (maybe I did), days when I wish bad things on people, etc... Then, there are days when I drive home feeling like I am making a difference. I would never trade working at my school for anything.

Today, experiencing my first track and field meet (as a assistant coach), I was proud and annoyed at the same time. Some of my students forgot to bring gym clothes and running shoes to the track meet (yesterday they were reminded to bring their stuff). Then, you see the joy on their faces when they give their best and do well and the excitement in their faces on their accomplishments. The excitement of riding on the bus to the meet, feeling their nerves, then to ride home as they sing and dance (if they win or lose).

Bring it on-April

I love that April started and I have my taxes done. What a great feeling? No stress! Spring Break is over and it was great. Back to work tomorrow.