Monday, April 26, 2010

I try not to ...

I try not to be so hard on myself, but that seems difficult. I set extremely high expectations on what I can and should be able to do. Who do I blame? I don't remember my parents putting tons of pressure on me to be perfect. I know that I was encouraged to do my best. I become frustrated when I want to be able to do something and can't, such as be positive 24/7, have high energy all the time, be a great teacher, be a great friend, remember everything, etc... I am sure everyone has their lists of things.

There seems to be a fine line of balance between pushing yourself to get better and beating yourself up when you don't achieve or don't accomplish. I don't think I am fully come to terms with not pushing myself, but I can learn not to beat myself up when I am not perfect.

2 comments:

LemonOne said...

Catching up on your blog today. Sorry I missed you b'day and didn't go out and get drunk or anything! Now about these other "issues." Must say it is great to see that your love for reading continues to grow many years after you looked like Pippi Longstockings when I used to go HT with Ken. Always had a book under your nose! Maybe you need a roll or ribbon and some little safety pins to remind those kids to bring gym "stuff." Pin it on their shirt like a kid! Now about getting down on you cuz you ain't perfect -- when you set these lofty goals for URself-- always give some thought to what is the worst thing that could happen if you don't make your goal-- and how can you change things so that you are able to do it when the opportunity presents itself again. The world doesn't end because it takes more than one try --that is why we have repentance --remember!
Maybe if you give those things some thought you will even be strengthened in your first effort -- might help you organize URself.
Carry On, Dear One!

Susan said...

My dear, no one is perfect. Don't be hard on yourself. Set realistic goals to reach because no one has the time to do everything that they would like. Sometimes you just have to let some things go. Life always throws you curve balls. That's just the way it is. Love you just the way that you are. :)