Why is it that I refuse help? I think I am independent woman who can handle problems herself. I think I don't need help and pretend everything is ok, therefore sit in my house sweating. Yes, my swamp cooler has a mind of its own and works when it wants too. I have spend the last week in 95 to 100 degree weather (my house is 80 to 85 degrees) because I don't know what to do or how to fix it. I was gently reminded last night, that I should ask for help (I recently gave the advice to another single sister in our ward.) I ask the Bishop about my home teachers (he didn't know), but suggested some names like my neighbor. I replied I can't ask for help, I feel like I am burdened people. After a good chat and yoga, I asked for help. Although, the second time they came over, my swamp cooler decided to work, then when they left, it didn't. I started to cry of frustration, when I had to call AGAIN! We think we have diagnosed the problem and I will be able to buy the correct parts, until then I am not turning my swamp cooler off.
Stupid demons in my head to make me believe that I am burden. I am working on that.
3 comments:
You are certainly NOT a burden, you most defiantly ROCK this world!
I am independant to a fault also Rachel and have to make myself ask for help too. Think of it this way though -- don't you love it and eagerly help when people need YOU?! I do too, so therefore we are really helping people by asking for help because then they can feel good and get blessings. Win-win situation! LOL. :D You are awesome!!!!!
Heather~ I was going to say the same thing! People feel good helping, so help them feel good by letting them help you! Everybody's feeling good!!
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